Dear god! you don't have balls?

I just no balls'ed you
I don't have balls anyway
Then I'm no vag'ing you
So then call me a hermaphrodite and let's get on with this.
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To anyone visiting Luxembourg:

there is a huge red light district there, don't accidently happen upon it when you or a female companion is dressed in clubbing clothes... there will be money offers.

boys can be drama- fucking- queens

You better get up out the way,
Tomorrow we'll rise so we fight today,
You know, I don't give a fuck what you think or say,
'Cause we are gonna rock this whole place anyway.

Now I see that motherfuckin' writin' on the wall
When you see, J-3-T,
Thirty D, he's down a bra,
Fuck those haters I see,
Cause I hate that you breathe,
I see you duck,
You little punk,
You little fucking disease,
I got H.U. tatted on the front of my arms,
Boulevard,
Brass knuckles in the back of the car,
Cause we drunk drive Cadillacs- we never go far,
And when you see us motherfuckers,
Better know who we are.

I got one thing to say to punk asses who hate,
Motherfuckers who don't know what,
You better watch what you say.
From these industry fucks,
To these faggot ass punks,
You don't know what it takes,
To get this motherfucking truck.

I'm already loud maybe,
It's a little too late,
Johny's taking hands up, with all the faggots who hate,
Cause I am good motherfucker and there's a price to pay,
Yeah, I am a good motherfucker and it's judgment day!

(Undead! )
You better get up out the way,
Tomorrow we'll rise so we fight today,
You know, I don't give a fuck what you think or say,
'Cause we are gonna rock this whole place anyway.

(Undead! )
You better get up out the way,
Tomorrow we'll rise so we fight today,
You know, I don't give a fuck what you think or say,
'Cause we are gonna rock this whole place anyway.

I'm getting used to this nuisance,
And all the fags who bad mouth this music,
It's fuckin stupid and foolish of you to think you can do this,
You cowards can't, never will, don't even try to pursue it.
I took the chance, I played the pill, I nearly died for this music.

You make me wanna run around, pulling my guns out and shit,
Your tempting me to run my mouth, and call you out on this bitch,
I heard the reason you got to beater to believe any of this,
You need to slit your wrist, get pissed and go jump off a bridge,

What? You can't see the sarcasm in the verses I spit?
What? You think I just got lucky and didn't work for this shit?
Bitch. I've been working at this ever since I was a kid,
I played a million empty shows to only family and friends.

What kind of person gets disembanded and deserves to get big?
I hate to be that person when my verse comes out of the kid's lips.
That shits as worse as it gets.
This verse is over, I quit.
Signed Charlie Scene on your girlfriend's tits.

(Undead! )
You better get up out the way,
Tomorrow we'll rise so we fight today,
You know, I don't give a fuck what you think or say,
'Cause we are gonna rock this whole place anyway.

(Undead! )
You better get up out the way,
Tomorrow we'll rise so we fight today,
You know, I don't give a fuck what you think or say,
'Cause we are gonna rock this whole place anyway.

White boys with tattoos,
We are pointing right at you,
We are breaking everything, r-rowdy like a classroom,
Pack of wolves,
'Cause we don't follow the rules,
And when you're running your mouth,
Our razor blades come out, (AH! )

Because it's nothing IN MY LIFE except my dick and what I spit,
So my dick is in my hand when I respond to faggots talking shit,
Speaking of fags,already wrap with the drag,
We killed him and then we stuffed his body in the Cadillac.

Why you always pressin?
You know I'm never stressing,
With fucking DMS,
J-Johny to my left,
Got Phantom and the rest,
Who are down there at the west,
A grew up by drive-by's and L.A gangsta's,

So what the fuck do you know about being a gangsta?
What the fuck do you know about being in danger?
You ain't doing this, so you know you're just talking shit.
Mad at all the boys because every song is a fucking hit.

(Undead! )
You better get up out the way,
Tomorrow we'll rise so we fight today,
You know, I don't give a fuck what you think or say,
'Cause we are gonna rock this whole place anyway.

(Undead! )
You better get up out the way,
Tomorrow we'll rise so we fight today,
You know, I don't give a fuck what you think or say,
'Cause we are gonna rock this whole place anyway.

Motherfucking time to ride, (ride, ) (Undead! )
See you duck when we drive by, (by) (Undead! )
Motherfucking time to ride, (ride, ) (Undead! )
Watch you fucker's just die, (die) (Undead! )


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Oh baby these backs are made for stabbing.
And stabbing is what you gotta do
It's the only talent you have
to bad this time it backfired on you

****WARNING RANDOM THREE AM POST****

No long a pharmacy major. Went undeclared... there's some serious shit going down at this school that I'm not digging.

~*~*~

So I've been going out of my way to be nice to people lately... it's starting to get annoying. So tonight I played rock band for 3 hours with my best friend Jarett. We literally ignored each other until we had a rude comment about the other persons score. Best time I had in the past 3 weeks.


I had the all scary sex talk with my boyfriend as well. Actually it was more like me telling him that I know practically nothing compared to his oddly vast knowledge on the subject. (Oh well I can still out smart, spell, and speak him.) I'm inexperienced in that area, which hey, that's cool... to much experience makes a girl a whore, no?

I can't wait for this month to be done... actually I want spring, some nice sunny almost warm weather here in Philly. That would be fantastic.


~*~*~

I had a song stuck in my head today, and I can't remember what it was. Right now it's Lump... which is a funny but stupid song. Sigh, I really want to remember, because I wanted to listen to it so badly.


Sigh, well what ever.

My life sucks and rocks simultaneously... bet yours can't do that.

What is fair and what is Just rarely coincide.


Tread lightly with your words... for you never know if something you say might wake the beasts.

~*~

So let me start with the simple fact that I now hate ANA airlines with an undulating passion. I missed my first plane to San Fransisco this past saturday, but there was another plane only an hour and a half after it... think that ANA would put me on that plane? nope. Instead I was forced to get a hotel ($80) and wait 24 hours to catch the next flight to SFO. I pretty much decided to fuck that shit and take a hop now from San Fran to Kadena... that way I don't have to deal with the Japanese airlines at all.

Aside from that little mess, I managed to spend new years with my lover. It was definitely the best new years ever. Although I did miss my past experiences of banging pots and pans with spoons until you broke the handles. But I won't complain I was pretty damn happy being able to lay in James' arms.

On the whole Japan really was a beautiful country. I'm not a huge fan of cities, but the city of Naha was absolutely gorgeous. Of course it had its down side- construction, McDonald's, fat people on little scooters- but it is probably one of my favorite cities.

James had to work part time while I was there but it was all fine by me. Even with him being the love of my life I still needed time to just chill by myself. Still, he pretty much killed me when he asked if I could just not get on the plane and just stay with him. Yeah, I almost cried at that. Then leaving him at the airport... god that really fucking sucked. I couldn't even look back as I walked through the gate because I was crying already. God even thinking about it makes me almost cry.

The last time I cried over missing him was probably back at the end of August, when I went to see him in Vegas. But I only cried a little when I left the hotel. Speaking of Vegas... he and I both still had the movie stub for the movie college, which we went to see when I visited.

I get these little signs everywhere that he's just the one for me. Which hey it's possible that I'm reading into things to find the signs I won't deny it, but sometimes it just blows my mind. Like one instance was the article "A New Year in Japan is a Family experiance"... all about the firsts of the New Year... Like the first laugh, the first bath, the first meal... (I had lucky charms... though considering my luck recently they didn't do shit) all were family experiances... which hey I just so happened to share with James... anyway he is going to be my family in 2-3 years anyway.

Anyway here is my main point- even though my boyfriend sidetracked me...

Main Point: Japan is great. Don't take ANA, Take United. Make Sure you have Ticket insurance/ coverage...


P.S. Birds and Bees by Breathe Caroline is like my newest addiction.

Ugh

So, here we are
That's pretty far
When you think of where we've been
No going back
I'm fading out
All that has faded me within
You're by my side
Now everything's fine
I can't believe

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me

~*~*~

So let's talk highschool drama, eh?

My supposed best friend hates me now because I never told him that I went to see my ex-fiance before I left for the summer. He and I were tight, like to the point that we could have dated, but he didn't want to get that serious. Which I figured out pretty easily when he went to see some other chick that he met over the internet like wow I can take a hint sunshine... then he tries to feed me this load of bull that he wanted to date me... yeah fuck you, you lying peace of shit.

Other than that, I'm in a fan-freaking-tastic mood.

My flight home was canceled so I got home a day late... and a few months back (Like 2) I was in the ER because of breathing problems, which are now back... oh and I'm scared of marriage because I've been having the most vivid nightmares of my ex-boyfriend and it scares me.

Ha so there was my blog-dump of feelings for a bit. Sorry bout that.

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A spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down...

December 10th...

officially 3 more days left in this forsaken semester.

4 days until I leave for a week in the Caribbean with the family.

19 days until I get to see my lover again. :]

oh yeah I'm 19.


~*~*~

So the last day of my semester consists of a microbiology test around 10, which means I might be able to make it out of Philly by 12. Seriously if you ever have the desire to visit Philadelphia, squelch that idea instantly. The Schuylkill Expressway is always loaded with traffic. The roads are terribly paved. OH and yeah the city smells like ass more often than not.

Now there are a lot of things that I will admit are nice about Philadelphia. Everyone knows where it is... even my redneck, back-wood friends and relatives. There's an amazing place on Walnut near 36th called Naked chocolate cafe which has become my new addiction. I can visit Penn's campus which is absolutely beautiful compared to my campus. There is not a Starbucks on every corner like there is in Boston, which is a nice change... now I don't have to see prissy Soy latte extra foam nose in the air assholes almost get hit by cars on every road because they are too busy yelling into the bluetooth phone to be paying attention to the fact that traffic is indeed headed in their direction. Oh and there's a killer pizza place called Allegro's... I could live off their menu.

In general I guess Philadelphia is nice. I would much prefere something not cold, wet, and wretched during the winter or hot, sticky, and smelly during the summer. (Philly is nice when it's spring and isn't raining... like today it's raining.)

Oh yeah, I am on my base's deploy list for next August. yay? I wasn't too upset about it until my friend JT who is ROTC told me that he was looking forward to graduating in uniform with me. There are only three of us that are military members, and I am enlisted while the two boys are ROTC... lazy bums. haha.

Happy Pearl Harbor Day Vets

I am an American Airman... (I bleed blue)
I am a warrior (I like fighting)
I have answered my Nation's call (but not as often after uncle Sam molested me)

I am an American Airman (in case you didn't catch the the first time)
My mission is to fly fight and win (I also stock shelves with ammunition, chem gear, and other fun things)
I am faithful to a proud heritage (yeah take that you imperialist fools)
A tradition of honor
and a legacy of valor (and some rather corrupt politicians.)

I am an American Airman (Third times the charm?)
Guardian of freedom and justice ( cause who else will make sure that they are still in the country)
My nation's sword and shield (Too bad we can't be bombs and force fields)
I defend my country with my life (it's what we do)

I am an American Airman (Redundant, no?)
Wingman, Leader, Warrior ( dominatrix.... oh wait that's my other weekend job.)
I will never leave an airman behind (which means if you're a marine you might be in trouble)
I will never falter (but I do stutter)
and I will n-not f-fail. (damn stuttering)

~*~*~

In no way am I being disrespectful to the armed forces. I am a proud member of the Air National Guard while I finish my Pharm D. All the guys I've dated have found their ways into at least one branch of the military. My father is prior coast guard, and my mother is O-6 in the Public Health Service. I bleed blue, I love my country, and I think code pink needs to commit a mass suicide...

Yes this a getting to know me post... I would love to get to know you as well. I love people who use sarcasm. I think using references to illegal immigrants is hilarious... (you don't even need a green card to do that!) I'm a bitch and probably the nicest girl you'll ever meet cause I care.

~*~*~

So where to start the story.
I'm 18, I will be 19 in three days. (for those that cannot do math, that means my birthday is December 10th. yeah... I was raised in an upright and proper way, which on many occasions I choose to shove off and be a totally redneck. (I like flannal, guns, and tailgaits)

I have family in the nicest places... Boston, California, Florida, Virginia (actually VA sucks... I would know, I live there, as well as Philly... I'm there for school) <3 to my redneck yanks. SO I visit many places to see aforementioned family.

I am engaged to a interesting young airman who has somehow needled his way into my life and made it impossible to imagine it with out him. Although at some point I'll end up killing him from some of the stunts he pulls, it will only be out of the deepest love that I kill him. :D joking.

I have had a rocky past but that's not what's really important. This story is about the here and now and how I'm feeling. If I'm mad I'll be ranting, if I'm happy there will be Metallic and Scorpions and Pink (only female artist I like)

This is Rae, over and out.