Ugh

So, here we are
That's pretty far
When you think of where we've been
No going back
I'm fading out
All that has faded me within
You're by my side
Now everything's fine
I can't believe

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me

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So let's talk highschool drama, eh?

My supposed best friend hates me now because I never told him that I went to see my ex-fiance before I left for the summer. He and I were tight, like to the point that we could have dated, but he didn't want to get that serious. Which I figured out pretty easily when he went to see some other chick that he met over the internet like wow I can take a hint sunshine... then he tries to feed me this load of bull that he wanted to date me... yeah fuck you, you lying peace of shit.

Other than that, I'm in a fan-freaking-tastic mood.

My flight home was canceled so I got home a day late... and a few months back (Like 2) I was in the ER because of breathing problems, which are now back... oh and I'm scared of marriage because I've been having the most vivid nightmares of my ex-boyfriend and it scares me.

Ha so there was my blog-dump of feelings for a bit. Sorry bout that.

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A spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down...

December 10th...

officially 3 more days left in this forsaken semester.

4 days until I leave for a week in the Caribbean with the family.

19 days until I get to see my lover again. :]

oh yeah I'm 19.


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So the last day of my semester consists of a microbiology test around 10, which means I might be able to make it out of Philly by 12. Seriously if you ever have the desire to visit Philadelphia, squelch that idea instantly. The Schuylkill Expressway is always loaded with traffic. The roads are terribly paved. OH and yeah the city smells like ass more often than not.

Now there are a lot of things that I will admit are nice about Philadelphia. Everyone knows where it is... even my redneck, back-wood friends and relatives. There's an amazing place on Walnut near 36th called Naked chocolate cafe which has become my new addiction. I can visit Penn's campus which is absolutely beautiful compared to my campus. There is not a Starbucks on every corner like there is in Boston, which is a nice change... now I don't have to see prissy Soy latte extra foam nose in the air assholes almost get hit by cars on every road because they are too busy yelling into the bluetooth phone to be paying attention to the fact that traffic is indeed headed in their direction. Oh and there's a killer pizza place called Allegro's... I could live off their menu.

In general I guess Philadelphia is nice. I would much prefere something not cold, wet, and wretched during the winter or hot, sticky, and smelly during the summer. (Philly is nice when it's spring and isn't raining... like today it's raining.)

Oh yeah, I am on my base's deploy list for next August. yay? I wasn't too upset about it until my friend JT who is ROTC told me that he was looking forward to graduating in uniform with me. There are only three of us that are military members, and I am enlisted while the two boys are ROTC... lazy bums. haha.

Happy Pearl Harbor Day Vets

I am an American Airman... (I bleed blue)
I am a warrior (I like fighting)
I have answered my Nation's call (but not as often after uncle Sam molested me)

I am an American Airman (in case you didn't catch the the first time)
My mission is to fly fight and win (I also stock shelves with ammunition, chem gear, and other fun things)
I am faithful to a proud heritage (yeah take that you imperialist fools)
A tradition of honor
and a legacy of valor (and some rather corrupt politicians.)

I am an American Airman (Third times the charm?)
Guardian of freedom and justice ( cause who else will make sure that they are still in the country)
My nation's sword and shield (Too bad we can't be bombs and force fields)
I defend my country with my life (it's what we do)

I am an American Airman (Redundant, no?)
Wingman, Leader, Warrior ( dominatrix.... oh wait that's my other weekend job.)
I will never leave an airman behind (which means if you're a marine you might be in trouble)
I will never falter (but I do stutter)
and I will n-not f-fail. (damn stuttering)

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In no way am I being disrespectful to the armed forces. I am a proud member of the Air National Guard while I finish my Pharm D. All the guys I've dated have found their ways into at least one branch of the military. My father is prior coast guard, and my mother is O-6 in the Public Health Service. I bleed blue, I love my country, and I think code pink needs to commit a mass suicide...

Yes this a getting to know me post... I would love to get to know you as well. I love people who use sarcasm. I think using references to illegal immigrants is hilarious... (you don't even need a green card to do that!) I'm a bitch and probably the nicest girl you'll ever meet cause I care.

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So where to start the story.
I'm 18, I will be 19 in three days. (for those that cannot do math, that means my birthday is December 10th. yeah... I was raised in an upright and proper way, which on many occasions I choose to shove off and be a totally redneck. (I like flannal, guns, and tailgaits)

I have family in the nicest places... Boston, California, Florida, Virginia (actually VA sucks... I would know, I live there, as well as Philly... I'm there for school) <3 to my redneck yanks. SO I visit many places to see aforementioned family.

I am engaged to a interesting young airman who has somehow needled his way into my life and made it impossible to imagine it with out him. Although at some point I'll end up killing him from some of the stunts he pulls, it will only be out of the deepest love that I kill him. :D joking.

I have had a rocky past but that's not what's really important. This story is about the here and now and how I'm feeling. If I'm mad I'll be ranting, if I'm happy there will be Metallic and Scorpions and Pink (only female artist I like)

This is Rae, over and out.